It’s Thanksgiving

First off, Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! Take the day and try to relax and enjoy time with your family. If you’re on duty, like me today, stay safe out there and I hope you can get a chance to stop and sit down for a meal today. Thank you for giving up your holiday to serve your community.

This is a hard Thanksgiving for me. It’s the first one where I’m out of the state that the majority of my family lives in, and since I’m on duty today I am not able to go home for the holiday. And to top it off, the one I was hoping would be moving with me when I came here has pretty much cut me out of her life. But oh well. I’m here, and I still have things that I’m thankful for.

One of the biggest things I’m thankful for this year is my family. They’ve stood by me and have been willing to help me in any way that I’ve needed this past year. And I’ve definitely needed the help too. When I was getting frustrated on the job search, they were there to talk to, when someone I truly cared about disappeared from my life suddenly they put up with my moodiness and moping and pushed me to try and put it behind me. They gave me hugs when I needed them, encouragement when I needed it, and kicks in the ass when I needed the motivation.

And by family, I don’t just mean blood family. I also mean the people who have become like family to me on Twitter and in the #CoEMS/#EMS2point0 movements. @msenginemedic @shell1972 @EMTGoose @EMTDani @MsParamedic @enginemedic @emtmikey, and lots of others I’m forgetting,  plus people like Linuss and Lucid from over at my favorite EMT forum. Ya’ll really mean a lot to me and thank you for being here when I need someone.

I’m also so incredibly thankful to be working again in the field that I love and being given another chance to get my life turned to where I want it to go. This job has opened up several doors to me, including a chance to go back to school and try again for my medic cert. Working out here will be incredible experience, and when I move on to continue my education I’ll always look at it fondly for the chances it gave me. And this service has done it’s best to invite me into their little family with open arms, and it helped since I was a stranger moving here with no idea about anything in the area.

I’m grateful for all the lessons I’ve learned this year, even when at the time they seemed like they were the end of my dreams. I kept getting told everything works out the way it does for a reason, and I’m hoping they’re right. I’ve learned a lot this year, and I’m not the same person I was back in January. We’ll see if these lessons keep me from making the same mistakes I have in the past.

And lastly… Little one, despite everything, I’m happy that you were in my life. I wish you the best of luck with everything and everyone. You showed me what I want in life, talked to me in my darkest times over the summer, held my hand when I needed it when I visited you. You are still the one I think of the absolute most of anyone, and you probably will be for some time. I still love you and wish things were different. Good bye.

Well, that’s enough for now. I’m sitting in the station for now doing nothing, my partner is upstairs still asleep from last night (He’s on a 24, as am I, but I switch off partners at 1800 and he gets off). Later today we’re going to one of our medics house for dinner, and it’s going to be pretty much the whole department there. Should be kinda fun.

Stay safe everyone, and enjoy today.